Yesterday began early with a visit to care for a Senior Chocolate Lab named Emma. Beautiful girl with grey on her muzzle and circling her cheerful sparkley eyes. She adores playing fetch with a tennis ball. Truly a delight to pet sit.
Then back home to get ready for church.
After Church, back home to quick make chicken pot pie and Southern Buttermilk Coconut pie (with heavy cream!!)
Then back to church to do childcare for any choir families practicing for our Church's annual Christmas Messiah musical.
Then over to mama and dad's to find my sister and her daughter, and a big surprise, my brother had driven up from SC....all there to visit with mom. We had urged my brother to come now instead of this coming weekend. Yes it's that doubtful. We are waiting now.
Then left there to go home and change clothes and head back out to do one final visit with Precious Emma for the weekend.
Then headed back home and spoke with hubby who was on his trek back across Ohio, Indiana, Illinois, and into Iowa after a weekend with family.
Talked to my brother on his trip back home to SC....as he needed to talk about my moms' condition. He knew now why we had begged him to come.
Talked to my hubby again to make sure he was staying awake and getting through the frustrations of toll roads!
Talked to my sister til 11:30, who called after she got back home to High Point.
Final call with hubby when he arrived back to Iowa City. Hung up at 12:50 am.
Fast Forward 6am...I hear a pst pst pst in the darkness...Justin wants to know where my flashlight is. He is taking off earlier than I had known, because his roommate had called and wanted a pickup from the airport in Wilmington. He was checking under his hood before he took off.
I get up before he leaves to get a hug and give last second instructions on a different way he is taking back. (country back roads)
My daughter is up and leaving EARLY for work today...Jonny is already gone to work for his usual Monday morning 5 am shift. Leaves me and Kam the man at home.
The house is quiet and still in the darkness. I grab some coffee and come to check in for any Monday morning posts.
I think of all that's going on. A new part of my journey in this life. Watching one of my beloved parents travelling the last stages of life on this earth. It is something you know will come, but something you don't like to watch. Especially if it is drawn out. The emotions become so raw. The body feels tiredness, and yet you couldn't even possibly complain as you watch the two who have been through 50+ years together face the path with such grace.
Thank you for your prayers. Knowing with certainty that there are people who have never even met me, and yet they say a prayer for my family as we face this moment,..is precious and priceless. What wonderful hearts are beating in the bodies of beautiful sisters out there.
I am thankful for the sisterhood. I am grateful to be one of those women. To be made in the softer image of God that makes us empathizing, intuitive, sensitive, and nurturing. So necessary. Truly all characteristics of our Father's image.
And today I am thankful for the stronger side of the man, made in the stronger image of the Father. The rough/tough, courageous, powerful, protective, providing, and sometimes fierce side of God.
I am grateful for my dad who has been this and more...now, as he takes on the role of nurturer and caregiver for my mom in her final days.
I am grateful for my Kurt, who is tackling great hurdles and challenges to do hard things, and pursue... better and best.... for our family.
I watch my parents and realize my dad has to say goodbye...before he really wants to.
I realize that even in the hardest moments in life, God is still shaping, molding, changing, and growing us into who HE wants us to be as we spend eternity to come with Him. He wants us to be totally dependent and committed to HIM, above kindred and goods.
Life is Good, Life is Hard, Life is truly God...predestined, planned, perfected, and
permanent in the end in our homeland of Heaven. Pilgrims we are until that day. All of us will make the final steps on the path God charted individually for each one, and when we step over the threshold from earth's domain to Heaven's awaiting gates, what a day it shall be.
Until then we can only wait....and anticipate....the day.