Wednesday, May 11, 2011

To Self...Don't Blink...Keep Breathing...


Last night a storm cell went through Charlotte, and boy did it pour...continuous lightning...so many strikes, thunder, hail hitting the new windows...thought about our roof ...

Our insurance covered the cost because of hail damage reasons from a storm that raged through in March of 2010..

Thankful for Insurance coverage.

I sit here thinking about all that has happened to our family in the last 5 years...

Our world has been shaken up. When Kurt lost his employment in August of '06 when the company left Charlotte, I felt like our life was the game of Boggle, and God had shaken the little box of neatly placed letter cubes and everything was in a different place. The only thing was that the little box that represented our life was going to be shaken many more times before God was finished...

Another word picture I used many times was that of a puzzle. Like God had picked up our neat little picture and it had been tossed and all the pieces lay scattered, and in the days - weeks - months - years to follow HE would be picking up the pieces and putting the puzzle back together, one piece at a time...redoing it...and as HE DID...the picture actually began to change...only by the Hand of God is that possible.

I sit here and contemplate, and ponder many things this morning, and I write...e-journal.
And sometimes as I type...I cry...because I don't know how survival in this world, with all the circumstances, and people, and events that God uses to shape us ...would be survivable ....WITHOUT GOD.

I feel I have blinked, and sizable portions of my life have swiftly come and gone before I even realized their importance. Sometimes LIFE happens quickly, comes at you TOO fast, and you stop and take a HUGE breath, realizing you weren't breathing...KEEP breathing...
DON'T BLINK!!

My dear bloggy sis Joyce left a comment that she thought I was a strong person...I am NOT! I am so weak. My strength...my SOURCE of strength lies in my Savior, my HELPER, Jesus Christ. When I am weak, HE IS strong.

In this life, we do not have control...not even one small measure of ANY control over our lives. We can make plans, and act upon those plans, and try hard to do the wise thing, and pursue what makes sense, but ultimately the HAND of God rules. He has designed and now directs our paths according to all that is in HIS GOOD WILL for us.

AND so today I say, it is a good thing to stay close to the choreographer of your life, your days...
He will enlighten, grant wisdom, and absolutely strengthen you as you go through moments where you blinked and somehow you ended up in a new place with new circumstances and you wonder where time went, but you don't wonder WHO was with you as you navigated through that journey, now behind you.

I am extremely grateful today that I know that ONE. HE is with me. HE is my ROCK. HE is my source of strength and fortitude to HANG ON....HOLD WHAT I GOT...til HE gets me to where HE will give rest and renewal and peace and calm..

So even as the storms that passed through here last night, sometimes rage on in your life,

STAND STRONG.

Stay close to the one who holds that storm in His hand...

HE will see you through.

Hugs to any who drop by today...

simply some thoughts weighing on my heart today...for my e-journal this May day...

1 comment:

Theresa said...

Oh my sweet friend, isn't it the TRUTH? I know how we make it thru tough times, I know how we get to the next day, the next breath and take the next step:) We lean on the everlasting arm:) Strength comes from within and God is that strength! You have been thru SO much and you do appear to be strong... You just take one day at a time, one step at a time! Have a blessed and hopefully storm-free evening! Love you bunches!